I have no clue…


It turns out, that I still have no clue on what I am going to do career wise.


I am not a designer. And I am not sure IF I want to be, and that is OK. I guess I was just holding on to something as I don’t want to do my current job anymore. Hell, I have not wanting to be doing quality control/assurance for YEARS! And I do mean YEARS!

I had a good session with my mentor today and we went through a lot of things.
One of them, was my need to always have input and that input was me starting off with the phrase/statement, “I know…”.  To be honest, I didn’t know know, I just remember reading about it and I just wanted to… Actually I don’t know what I wanted to do. I guess that I have major FOMO or something. I have also been told by another friend in the past that I tend to interrupt while people are talking. I know why I do that, I tend to get excited and want to share 😛

So, today we went through a few things, including design thinking. And just because you have design thinking, does not meant that you are a designer. And that is OK.

She also when through this technique with me called Affinity Mapping. Its where you group these keywords or ideas in clusters just using post-it notes (I LOVE ME SOME POST-IT NOTES). But before she did that with me, she asked me a series of questions to find some things about me.
And this is what was made:


Fox Affinity Map

She grouped the orange post-its under the yellow “headings” and then gave them to me to stick on my wall. She then gave me pink post-its to make additions.
So far, I have made one addition.

She also made the comment about, for now, I could always get my foot in the door by doing QA for IT and Software dev companies. The same skills are utilised. Just used in a different context.

So, lets see where I go from here shall we?

And so I can do a turn around on my negative sounding heading, I may have no clue, but as my friend sunshine told me, “that’s the beauty of it, you can do anything!” The world is vast and so is what can be done. And… as much as that does scare me, I do realise that I am still not OK with it, I am not OK with the unknown, but once I take the step to make that change, what ever that may be, I think that I will feel better…


Sign off:



Panics and Learnings


So leading on from yesterday, when I was panicking about if I should be moving in to UX or not (just been told today, by design Yoda that UX doesn’t exist, it’s a buzz word. From now on I am either using just design or human centered design). I was told to go to this YouTube video and start watching it. I mean what else do you do with a YouTube video right?

It is a video of a designer named Mike Monteiro and it made me think a lot. And I mean actual useful thoughts, not the usual over thinking that I do.

Basically I realised some of these things:

  • I do not want to be part of a bulk bought group of designers. I don’t want to be considered as a sea monkey, where a huge chunk of the group of designers, are expected to fail.
  • I also want to be someone’s “Andy” (watch the video if you want to know what I mean)

Design Yoda also told me yesterday that I would have to do an internship, to start learning in the role and from someone else. Hopefully. I do know and understand that in a new career I would obviously start from the bottom, especially considering I came from a chemistry background and not a design background. But, I was really nervous and upset about it, again I started to panic about the lack of funds, perhaps the lack of respect you could get as an intern ( I don’t want to be getting coffees all day for people), the fact that I wont be able to rent my own place and more….

All of those things made me nervous. And then I realised something…

As an intern, I will have no expectations on me regarding what I produce. My expectations will be at first, how much I learn and how willing I am to learn. And how I apply what I have learned to the work.

And, I am so very willing to learn. I am actually pleased with the idea; if and only if I have a great mentor, that I will be fresh meat to mold into something amazing. I have the potential, I know that I do. I just need the guidance. Otherwise, I have actually been feeling lost. There are so many websites out there, that it has been so easy to get confused and mixed up in buzz words and to have analysis paralysis.


Overthinking time! Source

So, today by Design Yoda, I was given some homework. And it’s actually pretty OK to have this homework. It’s a boundary of where I should start, instead of just starting and looking at everything.


  • Start learning the lingo
  • Bookmark all of your websites that I come across today learning about design; the good and the bad.
  • look up design and things that I know (like science, food, chemistry, video games…)

Its not a lot… but its still a hefty amount of learnings…